What you are seeing... Is a new beginning...

再见勾勾！

2010-01-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

我要看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像水手呼唤最心爱的自由
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手
朋友怎麽做一次就懂

看到你在远方大声呼喊着我
就像邮差呼喊你的挂号信呦!
go go boy go go girl
就让我们勾勾手变成更好的我
下次还要记得再见再拥抱我

Do you remember the 21st night of September...

2009-09-22T18:51:00.001+08:00

21/09/2009, my dearie's birthday and it has been a week of nice celebrations and well wishes from her friends and me and i decided to bring her to Les Amis for her official birthday dinner, heh.. (Voted no 2 in Singapore leh, haha) I just wanted to give her a really really great birthday this year, to celebrate us going strong after some turbulent times and wishing us well for the future!

The ambience was great, really classy, but of course, the older men beside me were staring at me when i came in, "This boy got money to pay meh?" they must have thought. Well, i do, i saved up for it so of course i do, ^^ Next, the food, now i don't know why people at hungrygowhere, ok, SOME PEOPLE, say that the food isn't fantastic because to me, it was, brilliant, a few minor tweaks to the garnishes would have been perfect but hey, we're all human eh? Still, i rate them a 9/10 because that 1 mark is for them to further improve! ^^ They were really sweet, they designed ♥'s menu because i said she loved foie gras and don't take seafood and they executed it perfectly, the dessert at the end was also special for her!

At last, after paying, i thought all was over but no! The waiter came over and told me (while she was in the toilet) that they have a little treat for her, a birthday cake! Brilliant, with the words happy birthday which were compliments from the pâtissier! Then suddenly, they started raining down more sweet, delectable desserts for us, woo hoo, sugar rush! My goodness, all of the beautiful desserts on the house? Madness, their service is really impeccable...

I really would recommend Les Amis to anyone who wants to have a special dinner with that special someone, of course, its a little costly but all of that is worthwhile when you see the sparkling white smile you put on the special someone's face... ^^ Happy Birthday again baby!

Party On~

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Continued~

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Continued~

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Peektures!

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19/09/2009 Photos~

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19/09/2009

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A fantastic day for me and ♥ today, had a good lunch, then today’s weather is really nice and cool, went to ION Orchard for some shopping, after finding nothing at Pull and Bear, decided to head to Topman instead, bought 3 tops and 1 pants instead and surprise surprise, just as i was commenting that even though i am always happy with the purchases from the shop, i always leave the place depressed because i just spent a huge sum of money, ^^ the cashier suddenly became excited because as ♥ was a F3 member, we went into the auto draw and we became one of the lucky 2 to win a Sony-Ericsson X-Series MP3 player! Worth over $500!!!! Man, and i actually saw the sign and was wondering how is that even possible?!!

Well, it happened to us and needless to say, we were really really happy and excited, the MP3 player looks great and after playing with it for awhile, realised it has FM, Youtube, Internet, Podcasts, Videos and Photo functions! Perfect! And its touch-screen! Going to share it with ♥, hee, what a lucky lucky day today! And i attribute it to being with the birthday month girl, ^^ and in the sure-win lucky dip, we won Benefit products and a Topshop notepad, heh, though these gifts become really small because of the MP3… ^^

Took some lovely photos (courtesy of ♥) and will upload in my next post!

Ciao~

New Lease Of Blog Life...

2009-09-02T11:34:00.002+08:00

Love Tumblr.

Love New Posting Methods.

Love PurpleVomit...

Check It Out...

Life...

2009-08-26T08:22:00.001+08:00

Life is like a circus and we are the all the clowns of our own lives, performing a juggling act…

We have to juggle work, play, relationships, friendships, kinships and making sure that we give individualised attention to the one we are working on while guiding the rest of our priorities along…

Unfortunately, we sometimes make a mess of things and drop one of them but importantly, it is not the product that matters, but the process…

Living life purposefully and having good thoughts and stop trying to think of ways to conceal our wrongs is the way to go…

Life. Live It. Embrace It. Guide It. ♥

Faults...

2009-08-25T16:51:00.001+08:00

Most of our faults are more pardonable than the means we use to conceal them...

Tumblr...

2009-08-24T18:30:00.002+08:00

An introduction to something fresh, an introduction from someone special...

Click Here...

Sunshine~

2009-08-23T01:53:00.001+08:00

Everyone needs a little bit of sunshine in their lives to keep them going on and on... ^^

Sprocket Red...

2009-08-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

Inspired by ♥...

Carl & Ellie

2009-08-10T12:07:00.004+08:00

Hope you all love it as much as Dear & I did, it is a really special story...

Pixar's Up...

2009-08-10T11:11:00.004+08:00

Went to watch Disney/Pixar's up with Dear on Saturday, kinda lucky in my opinion because it was full house everywhere but i was damn happy to get the tix, really happy!

As always, the show was a delight like most Pixar/Disney cartoons that i watch with Dear but this was absolutely sweet, it made me cry twice and made me wanna hold Dear's hand all the way and never let go...

Disney/Pixar really outdone themselves this time round and honestly, some "real" love stories/movies can take a cue from them, you don't need complicated love stories, just a simple and straightforward one, about how a couple met, fall in love and having the adventure of their life together and eventually, how one tries his/her very best to fulfil the dream of the other...

Love doesn't have to be that complicated, just keep it simple and love each other, appreciate each other, because you never know when you might never be able to see the other ever again...

Communication...

2009-08-05T18:21:00.001+08:00

Monday, 3rd August...

2009-08-03T07:17:00.004+08:00

Its Monday and i reached work at 6.50am,

I'm bored and thinking i have class 8.50am with a new class, dunno what to expect...

Looking forward to pay day on the 12th so can start paying my premiums

I need to get some exercise soon, getting fat and chubby, like a Mr Tubby

Spent the weekend out with ♥, had a great great time shopping with her

But the parking at ION was crazy, $10 plus for 1 and a half hour's parking...

Pure Madness. Absolut Madness. MADness...

Impossible is Nothing? It really is...

2009-07-27T22:49:00.003+08:00

Seriously, if a 14 year old can do it, all of us can fulfil our dreams, really...

My Talent?

2009-07-24T15:22:00.003+08:00

A funny question was asked by my students in class today, a boy stood up with his hand raised and asked, "Cher, what is your talent?" I was stunned to be honest, cause i really don't know, i'm a jack of all trades and master of none, haha, i really wanted to say that.

In the end, i told him i really don't know and that unfortunately, i really can't see what is it, i love photography but its not fantastic or loved by many, when i write, people don't read, i suck at arts and physically, i'm at the mediocre fitness level. ^^

I think for me, i should really stop looking for my talent because honestly, maybe i haven't found it and that is why i'm not getting any continual specified recognition in something.

I do have to thank though because she believes in me and she i believe is also wonderfully talented. ^^

Congrats to all if you found your talent, i haven't found mine yet, maybe i never will but i'm glad i have someone that appreciates me and honestly, i now learn to treasure that and will continue to treasure for a long time to come.

Dark clouds fill the endless sky,
My heart feels heavy, and it makes me want to cry,
I have to say stop to this negative vibe,
Someday i believe, i can lift my head up high.
People will appreciate the work i produce,
And will not find my work, a channel for amuse.

End.

Superfide Me~

2009-07-16T04:43:00.003+08:00

This is the reason why i love taking photographs, it expresses love, fun, anger, happiness, sadness and basically, almost anything you can ever think of... It captures the moment that can never be expressed again and lets u "freeze time" so that you can see it over and over and over again...

We decided to go to Changi Airport despite her being sick, she was really sweet, i love her to bits and love the fact that she is always willing to be my subject, i love capturing her on my camera, it just seems perfect, her look, face, smile and laughter... I'm glad to have these fun moments and even more glad that i can capture them all...

To borrow her phrase, Superfide ME~ ^^

Superfide Me~

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Superfide Me~

2009-07-16T04:40:00.002+08:00

Superfide Me~

2009-07-16T04:35:00.005+08:00

Isn't is a wonder...

2009-07-14T20:56:00.002+08:00

There are many things in life that you will miss out if you close your eyes and lead your life, many things in life you cannot see despite it being infront of you...

Taking each day in my stride, i learn to live and to love, importantly, i really work hard to treasure the things around me, even if it boils down to a negative or positive feeling, i look it at straight in the eye and face up to it...

Many a times, we complain when we get $90,000 instead of $100,000 when given a choice but that's living your life blindly, what if you compared your $90,000 with $0, ahhh, life wouldn't be that much worth complaining right?

Its 1 thing to say to look at the positive side of life when i know it is very difficult but honestly, we can do it, everyone of us, just treasure the things around you and the effort others put in and one will find that life isn't that tough after all...

Life is a mess and i'm fucked...

2009-06-08T22:18:00.002+08:00

I'm fucked up... I can't seem to get things right, can't seem to get the ones i love the best things i want them to have, can't even make them happy...

How fucked am i? I'm in a shit hole so deep, i stink, i stink to the max... Who loves me? Roaches and rats...

I want to be the pillar of strength, the one to talk to, the one that make things right...

God damn it Terence, shut up and get urself out of the shit hole...

I really want to... I just love to....

May the ones i love always be happy... God willing, i'll trade anything for their happinness...

Au Petit Salut~

2009-04-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

Finally had the chance to eat at Au Petit Salut today, the food was fantastic, especially the Foie Gras, nothing beats this place man, at least for now... ^^ You guys got to give it a go, the lunch is just $30++ per person, its really quite worth, eat there at least once in your life, you will NOT regret it~

Au Petit Salut~

2009-04-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

Au Petit Salut~

2009-04-28T22:54:00.001+08:00

Au Petit Salut~

2009-04-28T22:51:00.001+08:00

Au Petit Salut~

2009-04-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

My Free Saturday!

2009-04-26T02:19:00.003+08:00

20 Best Shots of 5th April 2009~

2009-04-06T00:38:00.004+08:00

A day of fruitful events! Renee managed to collect her GNC card and changed her new ez-link card and we also sneaked a peek at Tampines 1 mall that is opening next week. She got some fabulous clothes for work and play and we also visited a new mall called illumi (if i'm not wrong) which had free parking (because the barricades aren't up properly yet) and 6 dollar movie tickets at a new cinema (not GV or Cathay!). We had a fun-filled and knowledge blowing day at the Marina Barrage where we viewed the gallery to know how the reservoir works and had a great day of pictures at the roof green field! Thought the day has stop-start moments of rain, it never dampen our spirits! Not to mention the great food today, niang toufu at Simpang, Lee Wee otah and mid-joint wings, Don's pie, KFC and her mum's wonderful fried rice! Phew, what a day, we dun have days like this very often anymore but honestly, i'm glad we can still squeeze in so much fun in 1 beautiful day... Hope you all love the pics! ^^ P.S. Renee and I absolutely dig our new toy, the Canon 350D!

1

Photo By: Renee Lim
Touch Up By: Renee Lim
Hair By: Srico

2

Photo By: Renee Lim
Touch Up By: Renee Lim
Hair By: Srico

3

Photo By: Renee Lim

4

Photo By: Terence Lee

5

Photo By: Terence Lee
Touch Up By: Terence Lee
Hair By: Srico

20 Best Shots of 5th April 2009~

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6

Photo By: Renee Lim

7

Photo By: Renee Lim

8

Photo By: Terence Lee

9

Photo By: Terence Lee

10

Photo By: Terence Lee

20 Best Shots of 5th April 2009~

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11

Photo By: Terence Lee

12

Photo By: Renee Lim
Touch Up By: Renee Lim
Hair By: Srico

13

Photo By: Terence Lee
Touch Up By: Terence Lee
Hair By: Srico

14

Photo By: Renee Lim
Touch Up By: Renee Lim
Hair By: Srico

15

Photo By: Terence Lee

20 Best Shots of 5th April 2009~

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16

Photo By: Terence Lee

17

Photo By: Terence Lee
Touch Up By: Terence Lee
Hair By: Srico

18

Photo By: Renee Lim
Touch Up By: Renee Lim
Hair By: Srico

19

Photo By: Terence Lee
Touch Up By: Terence Lee
Hair By: Srico

20

Photo By: Renee Lim
Touch Up By: Renee Lim
Hair By: Srico

Isn't she lovely?

2009-04-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

My Home~

2009-04-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

My Wonderful SLR~

2009-04-03T20:32:00.003+08:00

Yes!

2009-04-03T06:20:00.002+08:00

I finally got my SLR, though its just a Canon 350D, i'm happy to start off with it, really happy, took some nice photos with Renee last night and this picture was created by her for me~

A change of name...

2009-03-12T22:29:00.001+08:00

www.thepurplevomit.blogspot.com

The Meaning Of...

2009-03-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

Equinox...

The time when the sun crosses the plane of the earth's equator, making night and day of approximately equal length all over the earth and occurring about March 21 (vernal equinox or spring equinox) and September 22 (autumnal equinox)...

Equinox Rockz!

2009-03-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

A Lomo-Fantastic Day!

2009-03-12T21:17:00.001+08:00

Life is a comedy...

2009-02-26T12:51:00.003+08:00

I always looked upon this sentence and asked, really? is it really?

Well, i guess it is true sometimes, when you think you have something, you lose it... Laugh...

When you don't wish for anything, everything comes... Laugh...

The one you love, doesn't love you back... Laugh...

The one you don't love, loves you alot... Laugh...

The job you loathe going everyday to, pays you well... Laugh...

The job you love going to everyday, pays you peanuts... Laugh...

I guess when we start looking at the things in our lives, we can view it as a comedy i guess, the only problem is, you never ever know when the next laughing point is going to be...

Even though i'm happy now, just had payday and missing Renee alot, i really don't know when my next laughter of tears would come...

I hope it doesn't, i really love what i have now, working hard to save, working hard to be a good man, person, bf, friend...

God bless...

I need it...

Happy New Year 2009 Part 2!

2009-01-05T17:11:00.002+08:00

A brand new year marks a brand new start, on the 1st of January 2009, i'm still happily in love, still looking for a job and still have the company of my good poly friends and OCS mates... Renee and I wanted to watch fireworks at Marina Barrage but apparently, the whole Singapore also and so we decided to roam around till i thought of Singapore Flyer and sure enough, parking was aplenty, food stores were open and tons of space right beside the floating platform for us to view the fireworks, it was perfect and we ended our night with KTV at Shenton Way with Sheila and Eddie(hope i spelt your name right bro!). What a brilliant day and to top it all off, Renee and I are embarking on our 4th year together, going strong, going well, though this year is a year of recession, i hope the both of us and the many others out there can find a good job to tide us through. Happy New Year to all, next up, Chinese New Year! Gong Xi Gong Xi!

Happy New Year 2009!

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Hongkong Final Episode...

2009-01-05T16:49:00.001+08:00

Hongkong Pictures Part 4!

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Hongkong Pictures Part 3!

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Hongkong Pictures Part 2!

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Hongkong Pictures!

2009-01-05T16:23:00.004+08:00

My Christmas cum Anniversary Gift!

2009-01-05T16:16:00.003+08:00

Heroes?

2009-01-03T05:44:00.002+08:00

Objectify!

2008-12-17T01:50:00.003+08:00

Today is my last day with Ghim Khoon's camera because he's taking it to Taipei and i have to return him, thanks so much bro, i really enjoyed your camera, the pictures i took with it are great, at least to me... Heh, thanks alot bro! Scroll down to see more!

Objectify!

2008-12-17T01:44:00.003+08:00

Objectify!

2008-12-17T01:40:00.001+08:00

Objectify!

2008-12-17T01:33:00.003+08:00

Pic(K) of Haji Lane!

2008-12-17T01:30:00.003+08:00

I love all the shots from Haji Lane today, but these 2 are my fave!

Pics of the Day!

2008-12-17T01:26:00.001+08:00

Renee & My Works!

2008-12-16T03:34:00.004+08:00

Went to East Coast Rd near Frankel Ave for ice-cream! Its a nice little ice-cream shop tucked away at one of the private buildings, their ice cream is great cos you get to choose the ice-cream and a additional topping which ranges from kinder bueno to rice crisps to m&m and many more and the fun part is, they "fry" your ice-cream with the toppings, nice. Then, as we sat outside, we decided to take some pictures with Ghim Khoon's camera (thanks bro!) and we manage to get some nice shots of each other! Nice~

Choices...

2008-12-12T12:58:00.002+08:00

In this ever-changing, realistic, depressing and
somewhat negative world, we often forget the good
things in life.

No, I'm not talking about your iphones, ipods,
PlayStations or your fancy WRXs or other cars. I'm talking
about the simple things in life and essentially,
I'm talking about ourselves, the human soul.

I always believe that humans were born good, but the
only problem is, we are and always have to make choices,
and that is when the line between good and evil,
right and wrong gets blurred.

I am not one to judge what is right or wrong, good
or evil so before you start ranting about how biased
i am or how do i know that I'm right, let me set
things straight first, i don't. I'm just giving
my perspective on things, that's all.

Love seems to be the greatest conqueror of all
then, its publicised and preached by almost every
religion and culture, the only difference maybe, is
what and who to love.

However, because of love, many people end up
making the wrong choices in life, they give up
on themselves because they lost someone, they kill
because of their jealousy, they love another while being
with someone.

There are also right choices that people in love make,
they become happier, they bring joy to others and they
make their own lives enriching.

Even when it comes to my favourite subject, customer
service, love is involved. It depends whether the company
loves its customers and often, those who do, will have
better customer service.

I have had opportunities to see some of the worst and some
of the best customer service in my short 24 year life and
I'm deeply saddened by how companies or people just simply
cannot comprehend the importance of customer service. It
doesn't win you new customers per se, but importantly, it
helps retain the existing ones and when they spread the word
of your good stuff, you can be sure your new customers would
come.

I've had run ins with 2 mobile companies, namely (N) and
(M), i won't say their names but I'm sure you are smart
enough. ;) i followed (N) company for many many years,
since i was in secondary school till i was in polytechnic
but once, they pissed me off, they made me wait 3 whole
months to get my LCD screen fixed. The problem is, when
i first send it for repair, they say they will call me
back in 3 weeks, then 2 weeks and so on, it was not until
i brought it up all the way to the head of (N) company,
did i get it fixed, and luckily for me, they did it promptly,
but its been 3 months, madness!

Thus, i switched from (N) company to (M) company and my oh
my, everything was ok, till the phone got spoilt. The
problem is somewhat similar as before but this time, they
fixed it on time, but it justs keeps getting spoiled
again and again. I made a fuss at the repair centre and
then i realise i wasn't alone, neither was i childish,
another lady made a fantastic remark. i quote "you guys (M company)
always SAY but DON"T DELIVER". Best sentence I've heard
for awhile, period.

Companies and people must always understand a certain truth,
if you say something, you have to deliver, if not, you
should "die" trying to. People can get angry at times but
honestly, i feel that if people can see the effort you are
putting in, they might just cut you some slack. This is
relevant to all things in life, not just customer service.

I'm going to repair another tech item for Renee soon and
so far, i am a little pissed with the customer service I'm
getting but it isn't over yet so lets see how they finish it
off, they are known for good customer service or so I've heard.
Lets wait and see... :)

I'm going to give my all in everything i do now, sports,
work, family and of course my love, Renee. No one knows
whether you will get anything back but like the good old
movie Love Actually proposed...

LOVE isn't about what you GET...
But rather, it is about what you GIVE...

For that matter, it isn't just love, its everything, give
more instead of asking or taking more, you may find yourself
happier or more contented that way.

If the whole world can do that, maybe our world can become
happy, warm and definitely de-stressed... Maybe if people start looking
at the things they can give instead of the things they want to get, people
will be happier, but of course, one would be a saint to be able to just keep giving,
he/she needs something back too sometimes.

Do a good deed today, GIVE.... I'll start following closely now... :)

A Brand New Me...

2008-12-10T12:42:00.002+08:00

My blog has changed layouts a couple of times now but needless to say, this has got to be the most satisfying of them all, i absolutely love this new layout and kudos and many thanks to my wonderful girlfriend, Renee for her beautiful vision and work! Thank you!

With a new theme comes a new beginning, i have been posting too much love posts in the past that i almost forgotten how to write. From now, its a brand new mind and thinking, i would write whatever i want to write, post whatever pictures i want to post.

I'm actually excited to start writing again, though i have a couple of topics i wanna talk about, i have no idea which one i would start first... But nonetheless, i really love this new piece of me...

Cheers People
Be Well....

Something About Us...

2008-11-14T11:39:00.000+08:00

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I've got to say
Cos there's something between us anyway

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I want you more than anything in my life
I need you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

Two Hearts Living In One Mind

2008-11-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

Well, there was no reason to believe she'd always be there
But if you don't put faith in what you believe in
It's getting you nowhere
Cos it hurts, you never let go
Don't look down, just look up
Cos she's always there behind you, just to remind you

Two hearts, believing in just one mind
You know we're two hearts believing in just one mind

Cos there's no easy way to, to understand it
There's so much of my life in her, and it's like I'm blinded
And it teaches you to never let go
There's so much love you'll never know
She can reach you no matter how far
Wherever you are

Two hearts, believing in just one mind
Beating together till the end of time
You know we're two hearts believing in just one mind
Together forever till the end of time

She knows (she knows)
There'll always be a special place in my heart for her
She knows, she knows, she knows
Yeah, she knows (she knows)
No matter how far apart we are
She knows, I'm always right there beside her

We're two hearts..

The White Rabbit

2008-11-02T19:23:00.003+08:00

Its my 24th birthday and i simply have to talk about the wonderful dinner i had at The White Rabbit. The food is simply excellent, bloody brilliant i tell you, the course i chose for the night and i implore everyone to go try it, the menu i chose went like this...

Appetisers (Though the amount is no where near, it felt more like a main course!)
1. Shallot Tart Tartin
2. Foie Gras

Soups
1. Mushroom
2. Chicken Consomme (It has tortellini with foie gras in it, brilliant!)

Main Course
1. US tenderloin (chose medium raw, the outside is crispy and fragrant while the inside is juicy and tender, full marks!)
2. Chicken a la King (the sauce for the chicken is really nice, creamy white and a small portion of rice, nice!)

Dessert
1. White Rabbit Black Forest Cake (not the way you remember it... no joke, try it...)

I had a great great birthday dinner, perfect ambience, food, company and service, just amazing! Oh, a word of caution though, they will ask you whether you want sparkling or mineral(still) water at the start, you can choose neither and choose plain ice water, then you dun have to pay $10 for your water. :) Overall though, you have to try this place once in your life, 9.5/10... Cause nothing's perfect... :)

Me having a great time!

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More Pictures!

2008-11-02T19:18:00.001+08:00

My 24th Birthday!

2008-11-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

Can i...

2008-10-13T00:06:00.003+08:00

Can i love you again...
Can i be forgiven..
Can i show you what i can do...
Can i have a future with you...
Can i be with you...
Can i just show you that this time i'm true...

Maybe...

2008-10-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

Maybe i'm a jerk...
Maybe i deserve it...
Maybe i can't be forgiven...
Maybe i can't make someone happy...
Maybe i'll never be successful...
Maybe i should die...
Maybe, just maybe... She can never love me or trust me again...

My Most Expensive Shoes!

2008-10-03T00:44:00.006+08:00

Got this super lovely shoes yesterday from pedro, had 10% off but really, it doesn't help much, :) but i super love it, its the best looking shoes i've got, EVER!

Glorious Spanish Food At Chijmes!

2008-09-30T00:19:00.013+08:00

Its called the Barcelona set meal and i'm showing them in order, its delicious! A little expensive but delicious! :)

What?

2008-09-26T18:15:00.000+08:00

I wish i am special, or at least feel special, i feel so mediocre, feel so frustrated wth myself, i can't seem to do any good and the worse thing is, am afraid everyone only remembers my wrongs...

Why does fear grip me at unexpected times? What does it want? Destroy me? Engulf me?

Maybe i'm not loving others at all, i just think i do... If others can love me properly, i can love them too..

Fear grips me, i grip others, i fight it, it fights me back, i cannot call for help, i have to slay my own demons...

What am i good for, i ask myself... Maybe nothing, maybe more, but all i wanna do now, is to make others smile...

*Terence, you really need to learn to shut up and stop feeling the way you do, stop disturbing others, they will appreciate you more that way...*

Just A Thought!

2008-09-26T10:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its not about being special, it is having someone special feel special about you... :)

Something For Her...

2008-09-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

I always thought that it mattered what i said or where i said it...
Then i realised, all that matters is that you make me happier than i ever could be...
And if you let me, i'll spend the rest of my life...
Making you feel the same way...

Chill Out Peeps!

2008-09-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

Delicious Food From Ministry of Food at Bugis Junction!

2008-09-14T18:51:00.001+08:00

Lost In Thought...

2008-09-14T18:48:00.000+08:00

An Entrapment

2008-09-07T19:59:00.001+08:00

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;

I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.

Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.

- Anthony Kolos -

With or without you...

2008-09-06T03:22:00.001+08:00

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I'll wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I'll wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you

Something she said that will inspire me forever, made it into a wallpaper...

2008-08-24T02:14:00.001+08:00

Sometimes punishment comes in ways you never thought of...

2008-08-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

Its been almost 5 plus months since she left, my heart still hurts because she was special, unique and honestly, the one... But it has to be said, people like me never seem to appreciate the good things around and only when i've lost them, do i realise that i took everything for granted...

I don't know can things ever come back or whether i'll have that another chance again because sometimes i think and i know many others also think that i do not deserve another chance. I hurt her alot alot, and even more so when i didn't even manage to do the fundamental things as a boyfriend right, like being possessive, loving her too much till she suffocated and sometimes i just wonder what on earth did she ever saw in me anyway... All i know was to love her alot and sometimes, all she wanted was my honest opinion because that could help her in her life but i didn't do it cause i though i was a saint, and that love can change everything bad to good...

I miss her smell, her beautiful face, her lovely smile, her fabulous taste in fashion, her love for singing, designing and importantly, her love for life... I held her back so much and though now i've grown since being apart from her, i wonder, whether she would ever believe me again to grant me another chance... I loved her alot but i also hurt her alot and no amount of sorry can ever change the fact that i hurt her and when she forgives, it only goes to show how good she really really is...

I can never find someone so in sync with me nor can i ever find someone so special again and if anyone's to blame, it is me, i can only blame myself and no one else... I really dunno what to say at this point because i feel so lost, i really love Xinyi still, very very much and i'm sorry to all her friends that i hurt her and i wun blame you for cursing me... i'll just stay here and wait for her and hopefully she'll come back again and i'll shoulder any burden, guilt or anything bad just to have that one loving day with her again....

If i had known the last time i saw you would be the last time, i would have stopped to memorize your face, the way you moved and everything about you... If i had known the last time we kissed would be the last time, i never would have stopped...

A Little Late...

2008-01-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

This picture is kinda late actually, i got my first car, a cool amber suzuki swift 1.2L! I'm really very happy that my mum help me with it and although its tough to maintain it, i'm glad i have my mum to help me with the costs, thanks again mum! I got it on the 28th of December, haha, i super love it! Thank god for everything in my life... He made it all happen...

Video of Resort!

2008-01-04T03:01:00.001+08:00

3rd Anniversary!

2008-01-04T02:48:00.001+08:00

Our Anniversary!

2008-01-04T02:19:00.000+08:00

How time flies, another year has gone and we waved goodbye to 2007 and said hello to 2008! Its been a tremendous year for me and xinyi as we battled arguments and quarrels to emerge as better individuals and of course, be ever more loving... i finally started school in SIM and it has been a joy to be able to study again, i'm also working in ishop cineleisure selling apple products which is very important because i have a new burden now, my new car! haha, i finally realised my dream with my 1st car, a brand new suzuki swift 1.2, cool amber colour... Hee, thank god and praise the lord for everything! This year, i decided to bring xinyi to a little escapade in nearby island, that is, sentosa. I brought her to siloso beach resort and trust me, its the most beautiful place i've seen, the swimming pool had a man made waterfall beside it, our hotel was right beside the beach and the best part is, it was right beside cafe del mar where i had arranged dinner for the both of us! After arriving at sentosa, we went to check in and then we went to the beach to suntan a little and swim in the sea, we then went for more swimming in the swimming pool before we went back to our room to rest. We had a brisk walk to 7-11 to get some snacks, then we went to cafe del mar for our dinner! The dinner was great, if anyone of you guys go there, you must try the roasted spring chicken with herbs, its perfect and the rice that comes with was cooked so perfectly and had a fabulous tasty gravy over it! Its so good that i dunno how to describe to you guys... hEh, you have to try it to know it... We then chilled out to my favourite house music and lastly, we went back to our room to have some nice ice wine bought by xinyi in the comfort of our own jaccuzzi in our hotel room... This was the most beautiful anniversary i ever had and ever will have because everything was perfect, from the ambience to the music to the food and to the company... What else can i ask for in my life? I have so many pictures to put up, hope you guys can share my joy... My joy of being with the most beautiful girl in the world, the most understanding and definitely the most perfect girl i ever can have... I love you xinyi! :-)

A fun filled 31st Oct and 1st Nov!

2007-11-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Its been nothing short of brilliant, stupendous, adventurous, partying, surprises and love from my frens and love ones for my 23rd birthday this year. Everything started on the 31st of October, at MOS where i held a table for my army frens Balo, Hongxu, Jason Sum, good fren Richard, my iShop colleagues Mike, Jane, James, Max, Graeme, my poly frens ghim Khoon, Adeline, Ronald and of course the most VVIP of all, my dear dear, Xinyi. First of all, i would like to thank Mike because without him, i wouldn't have been able to shift from a table at Pure to a table at the VIP lounge in the Main Arena. He also opened a bottle for me which for a colleague i know for just 2 over months, is really very touching and very brotherly love, thanks bro! Seriously, i'll kiss you if i could, haha! We had lots of drinks that night, there were 2 bottles of Vodka, 1 bottle of Champagne, 12 shots of sex on the beach, 1 bottle of Malibu but the important thing is, within a hour, something happened!

Ah Sum forced down 3 cups of vodka neat on me, half a vodka redbull, 1 sex on the beach shot, a little bit of red wine and a waterfall blaster from Mike and i was going bonkers! I kept sipping down on the Malibu pineapple also which i think ultimately, killed me! haha, i had no dance at all, all i did was drink and i was drunk barely 30 mins after midnight.. haha, but i must thank Ghimz and Ronald who looked after me, the stranger who helped feed me lime slices and carried me out by himself, he's a saver man, god bless him! And thanks to my poly frens, i have a Cristiano Ronaldo Biography book! I was drunk, and had a bad hangover the next day but i'm still glad i had that party, it was mad happenning, and looking by the pics i have, everyone had fun, even my gf, which made me feel great to see everyone had fun. i retired back at her home that day, she helped me up herself!

On the 1st of November, my dearest Xinyi gave me her presents, a card she made, cut, designed by herself with a little $380 voucher which she also made, designed and authorised included inside, i cried, yes, i'm a crybaby but who wouldn't, it was so sweet that i suspected ants were crawling towards the card and voucher! It was lovely, very lovely, she brought me out for a shopping trip to use the voucher she made and we ended up buying a white shirt and card holder from Muji, a cardigan jacket from Giordano concepts and i made her but some lovely shoes she was looking for, it was great shopping with her! It was so so so much fun! I love shopping with her, every single minute of it! But that wasn't the end, she brought me to Chijmes where we ate at Carnivore, a brazilian churruscaria restaurant where its a buffet, u sit down, take a plate and fill it with side dishes and wait for the chunks of beef, chicken, lamb, fish, ham to be served! But my favourite which i beg all of you to try, its the chicken heart, i think i ate close to 20, Xinyi can vouch for that, honest! And after the hearty meal, you must must die die try the warm grilled pineapple which justs melts in your mouth and letting the warm juice flow down your throat, wah, madness man! haha! Xinyi then gave me a 2nd gift, self made dolls of me and her and a little self made cupcake! All HAND-SEWN!

Goodness! She's fantastic! She justs never fails to amaze me every single year, i love her, i really seriously do. God bless her.... Her mum gave me an hogbao also which i have never received from any gf's parents before, which i felt so touched, not because of the money, but because the mother recognises me and to my thinking, i think she dotes on me alot also, she is always lending me her car and now this hongbao, i really think she's wonderful and i thank god for meeting Xinyi and her loving family... Honestly, i wish i can strike 4D or the ToTo or the Big Sweep because i want to marry Xinyi, this wonderful girl who never fails to amaze me, surprise me, love me, care for me, is patient with me, can cook, bake, wash, sew, design, has same ideas for businesses and most importantly, a beautiful who doesn't mind being with a normal guy like me. I'm glad i decided to change for her n not be so possessive anymore, i'm still working hard at being the perfect bf and i promise you dear, i will...

The most touching statement she wrote on the card... " If i every had to choose again, i would still choose to be with you", and this is despite all our arguments and quarrels we had... I have nothing to say, if i dun get to marry this girl, it really justs means i dun have the luck because i am certain that she is the one i'm aiming for and thats a fact and facts, leave no room for possibilities....

Birthday at Carnivore!

2007-11-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

Its my party and i'll cry if i want to!

2007-11-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

Sushi Outing!

2007-09-17T03:25:00.001+08:00

We decided to go shopping and kia kia today! And my darling brought me to a brilliant place to eat great japanese food! Ichiban Boshi! Must try the vanilla ice cream and red beans and dumplings dessert!

Little Whatever Girl!

2007-08-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

Anger Management!

2007-08-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

We went to Aivonda Spa!

2007-08-17T19:59:00.000+08:00

We won a $500 spa voucher from The Wedding Planner contest and we went to enjoy it yesterday! It was great, we started out with a jaccuzi bath together, then a aromatic back massage before ending with a oxy facial! A great way to relax! Thanks to the people at Aivonda Spa!

Fireworks on Video!

2007-08-10T03:30:00.001+08:00

Fireworks Fotos!

2007-08-10T03:17:00.000+08:00

Hey People, u can adjust the timing of the photo change, just click on the little clock and change the timing! Enjoy, hope you guys love my pictures!

National Day 2007!

2007-08-10T03:08:00.000+08:00

More Pictures!

2007-07-15T20:17:00.011+08:00

Before Watching The Movie Transformers Yest!

2007-07-15T20:17:00.010+08:00