I wish i am special, or at least feel special, i feel so mediocre, feel so frustrated wth myself, i can't seem to do any good and the worse thing is, am afraid everyone only remembers my wrongs...
Why does fear grip me at unexpected times? What does it want? Destroy me? Engulf me?
Maybe i'm not loving others at all, i just think i do... If others can love me properly, i can love them too..
Fear grips me, i grip others, i fight it, it fights me back, i cannot call for help, i have to slay my own demons...
What am i good for, i ask myself... Maybe nothing, maybe more, but all i wanna do now, is to make others smile...
*Terence, you really need to learn to shut up and stop feeling the way you do, stop disturbing others, they will appreciate you more that way...*