It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I've got to say
Cos there's something between us anyway
It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you
I want you more than anything in my life
I need you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life
Well, there was no reason to believe she'd always be there
But if you don't put faith in what you believe in
It's getting you nowhere
Cos it hurts, you never let go
Don't look down, just look up
Cos she's always there behind you, just to remind you
Two hearts, believing in just one mind
You know we're two hearts believing in just one mind
Cos there's no easy way to, to understand it
There's so much of my life in her, and it's like I'm blinded
And it teaches you to never let go
There's so much love you'll never know
She can reach you no matter how far
Wherever you are
Two hearts, believing in just one mind
Beating together till the end of time
You know we're two hearts believing in just one mind
Together forever till the end of time
She knows (she knows)
There'll always be a special place in my heart for her
She knows, she knows, she knows
Yeah, she knows (she knows)
No matter how far apart we are
She knows, I'm always right there beside her
We're two hearts..
Its my 24th birthday and i simply have to talk about the wonderful dinner i had at The White Rabbit. The food is simply excellent, bloody brilliant i tell you, the course i chose for the night and i implore everyone to go try it, the menu i chose went like this...
Appetisers (Though the amount is no where near, it felt more like a main course!)
1. Shallot Tart Tartin
2. Foie Gras
Soups
1. Mushroom
2. Chicken Consomme (It has tortellini with foie gras in it, brilliant!)
Main Course
1. US tenderloin (chose medium raw, the outside is crispy and fragrant while the inside is juicy and tender, full marks!)
2. Chicken a la King (the sauce for the chicken is really nice, creamy white and a small portion of rice, nice!)
Dessert
1. White Rabbit Black Forest Cake (not the way you remember it... no joke, try it...)
I had a great great birthday dinner, perfect ambience, food, company and service, just amazing! Oh, a word of caution though, they will ask you whether you want sparkling or mineral(still) water at the start, you can choose neither and choose plain ice water, then you dun have to pay $10 for your water. :) Overall though, you have to try this place once in your life, 9.5/10... Cause nothing's perfect... :)
Can i love you again...
Can i be forgiven..
Can i show you what i can do...
Can i have a future with you...
Can i be with you...
Can i just show you that this time i'm true...
Maybe i'm a jerk...
Maybe i deserve it...
Maybe i can't be forgiven...
Maybe i can't make someone happy...
Maybe i'll never be successful...
Maybe i should die...
Maybe, just maybe... She can never love me or trust me again...
Got this super lovely shoes yesterday from pedro, had 10% off but really, it doesn't help much, :) but i super love it, its the best looking shoes i've got, EVER!
Its called the Barcelona set meal and i'm showing them in order, its delicious! A little expensive but delicious! :)
I wish i am special, or at least feel special, i feel so mediocre, feel so frustrated wth myself, i can't seem to do any good and the worse thing is, am afraid everyone only remembers my wrongs...
Why does fear grip me at unexpected times? What does it want? Destroy me? Engulf me?
Maybe i'm not loving others at all, i just think i do... If others can love me properly, i can love them too..
Fear grips me, i grip others, i fight it, it fights me back, i cannot call for help, i have to slay my own demons...
What am i good for, i ask myself... Maybe nothing, maybe more, but all i wanna do now, is to make others smile...
*Terence, you really need to learn to shut up and stop feeling the way you do, stop disturbing others, they will appreciate you more that way...*
Sometimes its not about being special, it is having someone special feel special about you... :)
I always thought that it mattered what i said or where i said it...
Then i realised, all that matters is that you make me happier than i ever could be...
And if you let me, i'll spend the rest of my life...
Making you feel the same way...
My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;
I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.
Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.
- Anthony Kolos -
See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I'll wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I'll wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you
Its been almost 5 plus months since she left, my heart still hurts because she was special, unique and honestly, the one... But it has to be said, people like me never seem to appreciate the good things around and only when i've lost them, do i realise that i took everything for granted...
I don't know can things ever come back or whether i'll have that another chance again because sometimes i think and i know many others also think that i do not deserve another chance. I hurt her alot alot, and even more so when i didn't even manage to do the fundamental things as a boyfriend right, like being possessive, loving her too much till she suffocated and sometimes i just wonder what on earth did she ever saw in me anyway... All i know was to love her alot and sometimes, all she wanted was my honest opinion because that could help her in her life but i didn't do it cause i though i was a saint, and that love can change everything bad to good...
I miss her smell, her beautiful face, her lovely smile, her fabulous taste in fashion, her love for singing, designing and importantly, her love for life... I held her back so much and though now i've grown since being apart from her, i wonder, whether she would ever believe me again to grant me another chance... I loved her alot but i also hurt her alot and no amount of sorry can ever change the fact that i hurt her and when she forgives, it only goes to show how good she really really is...
I can never find someone so in sync with me nor can i ever find someone so special again and if anyone's to blame, it is me, i can only blame myself and no one else... I really dunno what to say at this point because i feel so lost, i really love Xinyi still, very very much and i'm sorry to all her friends that i hurt her and i wun blame you for cursing me... i'll just stay here and wait for her and hopefully she'll come back again and i'll shoulder any burden, guilt or anything bad just to have that one loving day with her again....
If i had known the last time i saw you would be the last time, i would have stopped to memorize your face, the way you moved and everything about you... If i had known the last time we kissed would be the last time, i never would have stopped...
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